The End

We're done. Totally done. No more you. No more me. No more us. You've changed. Always left me hanging. Sampai satu tahap, I couldn't stand it anymore. Sabar aku dah habis. Selama ni aku bertahan sebab fikir sayang , sebab fikir yg dia akan berubah. Tapi aku silap. Dah kalau macam aku jee yg terhegeh hegeh and he just sit there , doing nothing , what's the point of holding on ? What's the point of fighting for us ? It means nothing I guess. I texted a broke up text and actually , was hoping for you to fight for us. But as people always said , don't hope too much because that too much will cause a pain in the heart. And , it does. You didn't even fight for us. If you do care about us , you'll fight for it. But no , you didn't do that. You let me go. And that gives a biggest impact on me. To be honest , it's too hurt for me to accept it. But , what else can I do ? I'm the one who asked for it , so I have to accept all the consequences.

I don't put all the blame on on you. I admitted, I was wrong too. I was wrong because expect too much from you when I know one day , it will hurts me too. I cried. So hard. But now , I'm feeling so much better. Because you know , when you're crying, it's like you clean your soul.

Aku fikir fikir fikir dan fikir dalam dalam. Semua ni jadi sbb Allah dah aturkan yg terbaik. And aku percaya dgn jodoh Allah. Kalau dah tertulis jodoh aku dgn dia , satu hari nnt , he'll be mine. Kalau tak tertulis jodoh aku dgn dia, if we still be together pun, he'll not be mine. 

All our memories , the moment when we first met , the moment when he used to make me smile even when I'm mad , our late night conversations , the moment when he used to be there when I needed him the most , the moment when he used to make me laugh , the moment when we used to go out for a date , the place we go , the things he said , I will never forget it. I thanked Allah for lent him to me , even for a while. And God knows how much I love him , how much I miss him. Sometimes , we have to let go something that we love the most. It's the time for me to move on and be strong.


p/s : I'm glad cause I've had a chance to get to know you better this 20 months. I know you'll be doing just perfectly fine without me. I pray the best for you. Mohammad Izzad Faizwan , thanks for giving a space for me in your heart even for awhile. :)